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so so many things. in from one place take off right away. summer is going really well and it only really starts friday. girls camp was a really fun time, but it was only a taste, a training, for nominingue. ive said this so many times ive probably jinxed it, but camp is really gonna be awesome this year. it's gonna be INCREDIBLE, and i cant think of anywhere else i would want to be. i dont know how people can stay in the city. it's so hot and muggy and gross and camp is beautiful in every way. chris comes up friday and we head off that afternoon. hopefully saturday we can head into town and party wicked hard for st-jean. oh man, return to camp partying has got to be the best partying.
before that though i gotta get a pair of shoes and some shorts and pack it all up. started today and shouldn't take too long, but you know how these things can drag themselves out. foufes tomorrow night to i think for a goodbye party, there will def be carnage in the streets cuz i only need to be up at camp friday evening.
last dinner with mom tonight was pretty tough. it actually did get ridiculous. looking back im a little ashamed of how i acted because i could have been a jerk, but she was getting a little irrational as jeremie said. it was really frustrating, and upsetting to have such a serious argument so close to leaving time. its been a tough year with mom, but i think it's been a constructive one (still lots of work to do though.) i worry about how she will be without us in town, dealing with the whole house situation. i know it's got her pretty upset, cuz dad is being a huge dick as he will be and seems to be giving her a hard time. she said something today about it that i thought was true. how dad wanted to discuss the house between two strangers they dont know at all (their lawyers) while she is saying why not just talk about it. i know my mom wants to get the divorce done with (apparently), and i think dad definetly owes her some talking. to me that is the metcalfe trait, and it is a very frustrating one. i should know im guilty of inheriting it as well.
a lot of this stuff will really just fade away though when i leave. because of that gene, i will forget about the city for quite a bit. camp is your life and it's a lot of fun. there will be a few different people i'll be keeping in touch with, but even that will probably be limited since there's always something fun going on.
so much to do before summer starts, but that's ok cuz im running on energy left over from ouareau as well as the hormones from that same trip. oh god i cant believe im going to boys camp for 2 months. haha, whatever, ive gone this long.
peaaaaace, have a great summer everyone.

Consists of:
Finishing school
the Habs
guitar
(im not sure in which order. finishing school and the Habs and guitar are all pretty huge)

a normal schedule these days is (if there is no habs game)
go to school
come home
maybe do homework (eeesh)
play 2-3 hours of guitar

if there is a game

school
home
guitar
habs
soil pants in excessive joy cuz of a habs victory.

sweet.
guitar is so much fun. if anyone who reads this plays acoustic guitar and would know some simple songs i could learn that would be much appreciated. so far ive got some neil young, the beatles, ETC ETC
i am currently learning to sing the Joy Song by Against Me! but i have trouble matching up the strumming with lyrics. what is that called? harmonics? do not ask me to talk music.
according to my teacher it's a matter of practise. practise i will
go habs gooooooo

HABS CLINCH!
HABS CLINCH!
HABS CLINCH!
HABS CLINCH!
HABS CLINCH!
HABS CLINCH!
HABS CLINCH!
the party tomorrow night is IN THE TICKET LINE BITCHES!
HABS TO THE CUP!
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

The Reunion: Whistler/Van-City/Spring Break '06
http://spaces.msn.com/metcalfehouse/
check it out, pictures from spring break with sissa, jer and i.
i would've liked to have written something here but i am too tired and cuz that took way long. niiight.

oh FUCK.
i HATE it when the internet eats an entry. augh, that is so FRUSTRATING.
i really thought i had such a good one going. i'll never be able to repoduce it.
i was explaing how i was looking forward to spring break, but had so much stuff to do.
i made a list of how the next couple days were going to pan out. it included an art history exam and a hockey game. and possibly snowpants. before leaving for whistler at 3.00 friday. the trip will be excellent, and i was hoping to come back from this trip completely refreshed and ready to turn things around til the end of the semester.
whatever, that means i should get some sleep.
peace out.

i dont even know if i splet that right.
but i dont read over these things, i just get it out. in general, i like to think both my grammar and my writing is better when im making an effort.

this is my thought.
sometimes i wonder, how am i supposed to remember all these memories? i consider them so important to myself and my future, but usually we are on some sort of substance that will significally reduce my memory bank. so i think, i should stop doing these things, right? but the logic against that is...i wouldn't have those memories if my actions weren't as they were. and then i would have no memories and nothing to write about.
this seems to be a slippery slop (fallacy? hello butorac!).
i need to finish the rink tomorrow. i should. at leat the due date was extended till march. excellent. but i would like to have it done. unfortunaeltly my most recent edition is in the west, and im not there. i like to write with what ive already got written down. but i figure i could write out my ideas indepenedtly now and then add them later.
i wanted to write about the hut and the games of risk played there. in my story...but after last night ive realized that evening itself needs a story its own.
i might have said this in my last post, but i broke my record for laughing last night. it had been a long time since i had set it. last night though was in a league of its own. the bar has been raised. i thought, and my friends did to, that i was going to pass out or throw up my lungs. it was wicked. such laughted is a beautiful thing to be cherished.
so tomorrow im thinking i should make that trip west. i can see my om before i spend the week at my dad's, get the text, and chill for a bit at home. tomorow i gotta do that story and my IA assignment. i think ive got it down, im looking forwrad to both.
i thinking im headed off, but before i go, i want to say how incredible it was to see jen heil win the gold in women's freestyle. i watched the finals live at one after five hours of sleep. i know she has worked so hard to get there, and either she wrapped it up pretty weel. "it has been my dream for so long, and now it has finally come true." (or something along those lines)
her dream came true though, and that's what i find really incredible. i met her when she was going out with my cousin. she is a very nice girl. the olympics are awesome though. like everything else they've snuck up on me, but im looking forward to watching them.
alright, peace out
jon

I just played my first game of risk EVER. in a shitty ice rink hut basement, aruond a shitty plywood table, i took on the challenge of conquering the planet.
it has been a long time since i have ever laughed so hard. i was a disgusting mess of laughter.
i am completely exhausted. i am completely sloshed and it is 7 in the morning. this is EXACTLY what i expected to happen. after last evening this is all i wanted. my bros, played a ridiculous game of Risk, while getting absolutely shit faced. i can now finsih th e irnk with pride.
i need to get some sleep! OH MY GOD!

jon

on something that i thought was a sure bet. i need some MAD hugs.

lol not wet dream!
but in all seriousness, i just had an incredible experience.
( now im just talking about my dream )
i have to go watch a news report about a hab that tested positive for drugs. more later maybe?

the more we get into this school you the more i am getting frustrated with it.
why are my classes completely useless?
this is my last semester in CEGEP, i shouldn't be learning how to write a research paper in BXE English.
HELLO?! I'VE BEEN DOING THIS SINCE GRADE 7!
if you don't know how to, why are you in this level English? there is no way you could have passed without knowing the basics. that leads me to conclude that my teacher than is just wasting my time. i finished two books today in her class, and i knew i wasn't missing out on anything useful. i know how to write a goddamn research paper!
STOP WASTING MY TIME!
that applies to you to Intergrative Activity and Philosophy of Art and Art Concepts!
YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME!
my computer courses are fine, having fraser in it is a good time, plus computers duurrrr.
guitar is pretty fun if i make sure to sit down and practise to keep up with the material.
all this leads me to thinking that i need to apply to Universities, or should have already. the advisor told me last week though that i needn't bother if i plan on taking the year off and deferring my acceptance. that sounded like bad advice though.
the rink is almost done, i want to get it into creations.
IA at 10 tomorrow. please dont waste my time mrs.
NIGHT
jon metcalfe

so i have to create a portfolio for creative writing right? well this is something i've been working on. it's about my time as a bag boy this past year at an upper class westmount grocery. if you are reading this you probably know what i am talking about because i have posted about it before and i talk about it a lot in real life. anyways, it's just the beginning of the text. it still needs some editing, but it's better than how it started off. i am getting carried away though, because i have just started and i still have so much to say. i would appreciate it though if any of you were to read it to let me know what you thought. there is still lots of work to be done and i am going to keep writing, but this is the part that i have edited so far (to an extent). THANKS!

( the 5th Season is Misery )

the best thing that has happened was seeing sheldon souray cover himself in the blood of darren mccarty tonight. that was honestly sooo satis fying. i'll be honest though, so far school sucks. my high hopes and good spirits have been dashed completely. my "being an exciting writeer" class has turned out to be soley on writing grammar and CVs and more or less every other class i'm sure will be a complete dud with lots of work. i saw mr. vitone today though and he will hook me up with my video when i see him next. that's cool, i'd like to see it again.
UGH SCHOOL!
i should be in my element here. yes i realize it's only been two days, but i wanted to start off rocking and then just ride off till the end of semester. i don't htink that will happen but as i said it's only been two days. so frustrating though, how disappointing. at least i got to see letko and max tonight though for the game at twin's and that was pretty fun.
ÉUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH SCHOOL
i was such a big fan, i really dont think this will be a good semester.
and with that low note, i am going to bed.

i wanted to post some of my text, but there is still way too much to do. there is so much to put into editing and re-writing. i have trouble continuing the story because i read back and keep adding so much. important to keep writing though. but as i keep making corrections and additions i start thinking this might be a bit more long term than i predicted. i think i could really roll with it.
i am up for 8.30 tomorrow to hop back into the fray. i don't have any sort of anything ready. i may have already lost my schedule. i should get a binder with looseleaf. i'll do it tomorrow morning, i'm waking up a bit earlier cuz i have a few things to take care of. plus i probably have to re-work my morning routine since i kind of lost it over break. school is gonna be great though.
one reason is because of what happened skiing today. we were supposed to go up to Tremblant right cuz i had free tickets, but i forgot them at my dad's place (oh jon metcalfe....) so we changed our destination to Avila. i was fine with that to cuz i have the pass. but we're going up with Jon Simeone and first run off the day, first rail even, my ski catches and i bail hard and smack my face on the snow. which is like ICE! i got up and realized i was bleeding pretty bad from my chin. down at the chair the patrol told me i had to get stitches so they hooked me up with some pads and then i drove jon's car to st-jerome to check out the hospital. i didn't want them blowing a ski day so they stayed at the hill. i waited at the hospital for 4 hours before they told me i t was going to be another 2 or 3. in the mean time nagy simon and jon are waiting at the hill so i bailed outta there and we went back to Montreal. the Stat Care back home hooked me up with five across the chin and now it looks pretty sweet. it's too bad i missed out on my last ski day of braek, but i'm happy i have a ski injury of sorts. good story for tomorrow! i took a couple pictures of the gore.
( bad skier or just hardcore? )
so ya, sweet stitches and it didn't even hurt.
so school is tomorrow and it's pretty late. i should try to get more sleep this semester. so it begins!
night

i'm going skiing tomorrow with simon booth, carl nagy and jonathan simeone up at Tremblant tomorrow. nagy and i have a couple free tickets which is sweet. my leg is still sore from that wicked bruise. it has gone down a bit but it is still pretty big. i will post a picture of it.
( i edited out my butt )
i think it's gonna be a good time. it's gonna be freezing though so we'll make sure to do some mogul runs.
i didn't get to write any more of my text. i need to actually settle down and do it. i've got the notes down but i still need to write it! especially since i think it could actually be pretty good. cameron liked the idea.
especially with school starting. which i'm looking forward to. at the hockey game tonight i met one of my dad's co-workers or something and she had gone to dawson. we talked about the social life a little bit. the hockey game was wicked by the way. i had to dress up nicely because i was gonna be around my dad's peers. they were all French so i basically isolated myself to cheer on the Habs. we won, by the way, which was awesome.
oh man, early wake up tomorrow for skiing. gotta get to the bed!
one day till school, yesssss!

there have been a few days this break that i have felt pretty down. these are generally days that i really didn't do anything at all and thankfully such days have been pretty far and few between. today has been one of those days though, and i'm hoping that heading out tonight will cheer me up. What i did do today, however, was check out some universities and their programs offered. i am still pretty set on going into English or Creative writing. as for what i would minor or major in (or however that works i'm not even sure to be honest :/ ) i am figuring something related to those topics and then maybe something education wise. i'm pretty sure it is possible to go into education AND english/creative writing at the same time. i just don't know how. i'll talk to my dad or a friend about that though.
UBC actually has a pretty good creative writing program which is pretty cool. but like all creative writing programs you need some sort of portfolio and the admission is pretty tight. i've said this before, but i have nothing to base a portfolio on. i have these aspirations but nothing to fulfill them with. for all i know i don't have any of the talent that is needed, i just like to think i do.
so i decided i would at least work on that. you need to give in 30-35 pages of at least 2 (preferably 3) works of writing in different genres. the options are:
1.fiction (short or long), 2.poetry, 3.non-fiction, 4.writing for children, 5.translation, 6.stageplay, 7.radio, 8.screenplay, or 9.song lyrics and libretto.
i'm thinking my options are fiction, writing for children, screenplay. that's really basically it. i could also do non-fiction, but i think whatever i would use for non-fiction will be used to inspire works of fiction so what's up with that? i started working on something today though. i'm gonna be writing about being a bag boy at the 5 Seasons. it's basically just going to be a synopsis of my time there. i guess i could give that in as non-fiction, but i want it to be fiction. also, i don't know if i would submit it as a short story or as a part of a full length novel (which i need to specify). i've been making notes on it all day and sent them to max to ask him what he though. i've only wrote a paragraph though, i'm looking forward to writing it out. i was also thinking i could rework "Defining Dysfunction" and give it in as a screenplay. i don't know if they are looking for a movie script though and not a TV script which it is. i guses it could be a part of a film if edited. i don't even know where my copy of it is though, i have to look on my computers for it.
oooookay i should get ready to go meet my friends. they are generally able to perk me up right? i dunno, i have a bad feeling about this evening.
jesse levine also just called me. he's been doing that a few times. jesse i my old best friend from elementary and we lost touch. he moved about three doors down from me on laurier court last week though, and now we have been talking about hanging out. i keep telling him i'm busy though, i don't know why i avoid him. we did use to be best friends.
ya that's it. if i write in this again tonight i'll probably be pretty drunk since melanie got a board game based on alcohol called Pass Out for christmas (can you believe that?) and apparently that's what we're playing tonight. wish me luck!

i'm exhausted.

i had a good time with sachi today but i think i might be catching her sickness. whatever, it was worth it for mad hang outs.

tomorrow...i don't know what i am doing...a few people have called me for plans but i need to organize them. as of right now though, i just want to rest.

i am looking forward to next semester. school starts wednesday. new classes, new people, new friends and lots of new possibilities. not to mention all the incredible old ones that i will undoubtebly run into once again. i like being social, being social is fun.